Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Life comes full circle

It is often said that life throws lemons at you and that too when you least expect it; it is also said that life takes unforeseen turns when least anticipated. With unexpected changes taking place on both professional and personal fronts, my life seems to have taken some unexpected twists what with me now yearning to return to where I was previously glad to leave and also now wanting to run away from where I currently am

My last post was about how my previously tormented relationships seem to be on mend and thankfully in the past month relationship has not only got better but also strengthened. Three years back when I first came to this city and country, I was sure that I have got away for good and this is where I will build my Eden but life here has taught me few valuable lessons which will hold good for coming time too. Relationships are to be valued not only in Karan Johar movies but in real life too and even if things go wrong at times, as they sure will, to forgive and forget is for own good as I have now come to realise. Gone are the days where I used to recall my caged days of past with anger and disgust pledging never to return to the shores I left behind; my present is all about valuing what I have.

A major factor in my change of thought has been the change of fortune at my workplace; things seem to be going from bad to worse and it is now clear that I have to hunt for another job on war footing. I was in Dubai last week and my interaction with HR bosses had more negative strings attached than I had anticipated; with appraisals due next week my fatwa will be out anytime now and the sooner I get out of this place the better it will be for my own mental peace and stability. I have come to such a sorry state that I don’t want to wake up from my sleep in morning and every day I kind of despise coming to office. However what is real frightening is the lack of opportunities in this city; I have not got a single interview call the last three years I have been here which makes it amply clear that I need to run away at the first opportunity. Even earlier many well wishers had advised that India will be having more opportunities which made it better suited to build a future at my stage of life but I did not foresee that reality will hit me the hard way. All the work chaos has resulted in such mental disorder that it makes me take decisions which I am sure to regret; the Russian in my hotel room in Dubai last week was only one such instance

With work and office going downhill and the previous tormented relationships getting better and better; life seems to have come a full circle. My present mental disequilibrium badly needs a shoulder to cry upon and rest, which I am happily discovering these days at home after many many years; the city I was glad to live in few summers back now makes me wonder when I will get to run away from here. Life does have its own store of unexpected twists and turns, own cycles of ups and downs; in my life I seem to have lived my circle, atleast for now

12 comments:

  1. For me a full circle is a happy ending, so this is not your full circle yet. Hang in there my friend. Testing times, easier said than done. But everybody hurts, sometimes. Watch this : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ijZRCIrTgQc

    xxx

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  2. do elaborate on the 'russian in dubai hotel room' incident....

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  3. Life will come full circle when you reach state of happiness. you will :)

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  4. Life in the Middle East starts to suck in your late twenties/early thirties if you are still a bachelor. Most people say that this region is for retirement... or when you are unable to spend time with your kids.
    I would recommend you to move out as soon as possible. Also...talking about the Russian bit on a public domain won't help your cause. Just saying.

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  5. I agree with LW...I am sure things will work out for u soon!

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  6. All will be fine..As yourself have written about the circle.

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  8. Long time, no updates here??

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  9. Sorry to be catching up so late, was not active on blogosphere for a while. Life seems to be hitting a low point for you and naturally you are upset. Im just 22, not really that aged or intelligent to be giving you lectures on life but one thing i experienced in life is that tough times come as viscous cycles. You dont come out of it in a day or two or an year even. Especially this phase I have seen many people experiancing, but break through eventually comes up in the end. I really hope and pray the same does for you too, when we dont have options the only choice at times is to cling as fiercely to hope as you can. one usually doesnt has any alternate option to be frank.

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