Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Destined to Doom?

Last week I received an unexpected call from Dubai; it was from the same firm which had offered me employment last year only to withdraw it later at last minute, just days before departure, leaving me high and dry. That time I was totally heartbroken, but they had promised to reconsider me again once the global crisis subsides. Now with economy on the bend, the call thrilled me no end and after one year of long wait was all the more sweet. This firm is one of the leading retail electronic chains in the Gulf and the position on offer this time is based out of Muscat. I was told to meet their HR head travelling to Delhi next week and inshallah I will be with them soon. What was ironical was that this call came on same day and same time as last year, when the dirty call withdrawing the offer had come

After receiving this call my joy and happiness knew no bounds, for a year of hope and perseverance had finally paid off; but I did not know bad and unexpected news lurks around the corner. On Friday morning I glanced at the news papers in office mentioning Dubai debt crisis and I smelled trouble. The next day’s headlines screamed of Dubai sinking and I knew my dreams were in danger. As the crisis intensified I too had a sinking feeling and the uncertainty gripping the Gulf started engulfing me as well

By Monday I was in such a stinking foul mood that I felt like smashing window panes and actually drinking someone’s blood. I was cautious that I should not irk anybody around for I could have really killed someone that day. Why does it happen with me that whenever a good career prospect comes either Wall Street crashes or Dubai goes into tailspin? For the past three years I have dreamt of living alone in a big city, have my own friends, get my first girlfriend, enjoy life on my own but this fucking fluctuating global economy has time and again put paid to my hopes

Last year I could not sleep well for three days after the debacle and it is very painful this time too, to see the ecstasy prolonged for happen and in next few days inexplicably turn to agony. Imagine you have waited for one call for an entire year and when finally you do receive that call, the entire thrill gets shaken if not shattered in next couple of days by a totally unforeseen eventuality. I met their HR honcho yesterday and they have promised me again a good offer with joining in January, but never know if globally things may change till then. Before leaving I asked if Dubai crisis will have any impact on them, which was brushed off as a non-matter the same way they had done last year, as if Lehman collapse will have no effect whatsoever.

I sometimes wonder if I should reconcile to my fate and my job and believe that things better are not made for me; for even if I do get something, unexpected forces will wean it away? Or maybe perhaps my destiny is to never fly high and continue with my meager earning. As of now I have decided to wait till January and watch things closely and only then decide if the promised Eden does happen or am I always destined to doom?

16 comments:

  1. I hear you, bro. I was in the same predicament about 12 years ago, when I had a bunch of jobs lined up in the chips (the electronic kind, not potato) industry and then the Asian market decided to do a somersault. (You maybe too young to remember this, dunno).

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  2. Isnt a boring yet secure job better than an unsafe one which just promises to be exciting?
    And believe me when I say that Dubai would be the last place on Earth where you would get a girlfriend!

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  3. Hope you get your dream job. All the best dude.

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  4. Hey commo man!!! Don't be so negative!! From what you have written it seems the tete-a-tete with the HR went well...so why worry?

    All the best!!

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  5. aaaaaaaaaaa...so close yet so far! i hope it happens for you!!

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  6. I wish to laugh...but just can't...The thing is things like this happen and everyone faces it at some part of life....

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  7. I dnt intend to b rude bt sm1's got to point this out.
    Ur being overtly dramatic and a cry baby.stop sulking and fishing for sympathy(coz u'l gt enough of it 4m urslf).happens to the best of us. Just create better dreams.
    As for fate,it might have better things lined up for u than "1st gf" or a bigger better city.maybe u'd b blessed with bettr porn and a good (and i quote)'fuck-buddy'.so keep ur fingers crossed and ur hopes up.best of luck.

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  8. Fingers crossed, you'll get what you want real soon!

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  9. My turn to talk: I read this post last night when I couldn't sleep but I didn't have enough energy to tackle this last night and I wanted my comment to be well thought out.

    What you have described about getting your hopes up and then being shot down, (almost) twice! sucks. It really does.. and I can understand why you'd take it to heart.. But keep in mind that you are young, intelligent, accomplished and you have your whole life ahead of you.. I think Einstein once said that "youth is wasted on the young".. and it is so true. I am just as much as guilty of it sometimes when I endlessly worry about things that are not in my control..

    Just enjoy each day as it comes, and know that you are trying your best to move up the corporate ladder and when the time is right you'll get what you deserve.. as for the girl friend thing, don't wait for Dubai - start now..

    Hugs :)

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  10. You may have to wait a little longer or try a little harder but in the end you'll get what you have been working so hard for.. and also remember - no point trying to worry yourself about things that you have no control over..

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  11. C'mon man!!Why u sounding so negative, huh!!
    U'll surely get the right job at the right place when the right time comes, right!!!:)

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  12. cheer up buddy..
    life tests you before it hands you over your dream job..
    chin up and you stride forward... you will soon landup in your dream job

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  13. aree dude..jo hoga dekha jaeyga..worrying never helped anyone!! so just gulp down a shot of whiskya nd get on your way to the much awaited profile!! Inshallah :)

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  14. Dubai is going through a crisis too at the moment I suppose? Well, all the best and hope you get what you so dearly want.

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  15. all the best mate.it looks like abu dhabi is going to bail these guys out so no worries

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  16. Arre baba, clearly, one year down the line you're still on their radar... They really want you!

    It's just a matter of a LITTLE bit of time. I know patience sucks, but once the wait is over, you'll forget the days of wait in an instant... Worry not :)

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